reminisce bout the times I had

wannachieve in 2oo7

2007-01-07T04:16:00.000-08:00

hmm... it's been such a long time .
anyway wanna know what i hope to achieve in year 2007?????

*teng teng teng teng*

1) becomes a workaholic.
2) catch up with Ming Wei and Fu Rong [flute].
3) try not to be a jerk.
4) do my duties well.
5) get Band 6 for my MUET... but on second thought Band 5's not that bad too.
6) Get at the very least A1s for the 3 subjects i'm concentrating on for STPM.
7) try not to lose sight of the two people i'm looking up to right now???
8) collects 100 tin caps.
9) dare to dream!!!

frust. , tense, wad more can u ask for?

2006-10-18T06:43:00.000-07:00

一开始... 还以为我可以和他们两成为好友.
但现在一想起来... 那是一件很难要办到的事啊!!!
因为实使就是我跟他们相差太遥远了.
每当一想起, 就然我很心痛, 很有压力,也感到好伤脑精.
有时也感到自己好幼稚, 好固执...
为什么一定要跟他们好...
为什么一定要寻着他们而走???
为什么?!?!!?
这感觉真不好受. 这被当成物品, 尤其是那中一想到就拿来看, 忘记了就丢在一旁的物品...
不之这样,我想我应该也很明白小樱[火影忍者]所受的委屈, 的悲伤...
一直在他们的后面, 一直看着他们的背影, 只董得一直拖他们的后腿.

现在连我本身都看不起自己,怎能expect别人看的起我呢?
现在感到好沉默,好优异... 我也不知道怎样才好. 也没有人能安慰我,因为我只是孤零零一个人活在这世界上.一直以来都是一个人.总是一个人...
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Kanagummagarn Night!!!

2006-09-07T04:01:00.000-07:00

Date: 02/09/2006
Time: 6:30pm-10:30pm
Venue: Lok Thian Thai Restaurant [first floor one]

What does Kanagummagarn means to ya???
well... at first i totally have no idea at all!!!
I even walk pass the place they're holding the Dinner twice eventhough there's this big sign stick to somewhere. lol. luckily i met Heng Wuan who was coming down the stair while i'm just about to start my third attempt of walking back and forth over there.

Later of the day, I only get to find out from Hua Beng who was the Mc of that night together with Jessica that i actually means Prefects Night inThai!!!
Cool huh????
Kanagummagarn... maybe i might suggest to Jacinta to use it for our notice board... hehe.

that night, we [exco of yr 06/07] sent 6 representatives up on the stage to perform for the 4th Performance. they are Edmond, Siaw Ching, Juok ya, Karen, Norman and Michel!!! WoohOo~ they were great. Especially those trio Moon, Siaw ching and Juokya. The other three no comment. haha.

oooya.... those that were involved in the Merdeka Day thingy even took along their flags and pompom and wave along to Jabez solo singing performance at the end of the dinner [me included].

anyway... not gonna say much here... i'll leave the saying to this three gals, sobb go check out this linkages :
Jess: http://smudgedglasses.wordpress.com/2006/09/03/prefects-dinner-0506/
Eichi: http://eichi17.blogspot.com/2006/09/flight-delayed-chewing-at-my-mentos.html
Helibely: http://helibely.blogspot.com/2006/09/prefect-dinner.html

How i Spent My Merdeka Day~

2006-09-07T03:45:00.000-07:00

All through that week, most of us didn't get to sleep properly some even don't!!!! Got back at Maktab at 11 something. And only got to rest at 12/1 something after bath, supper and so on. Then woke up at 2 something to get ready for the rehearsal. Went to Padang Merdeka at 3 something and then sit there on the stand until 7 am.!!!!! Nope i'm not joking at all, until now i can't really get it why they want us to go there so early in the morning just sitting there doing nothing but to waste our precious sleeping time.

moving on, the foods were bad [ i "Ta pau" from outside] and some participants even got diarrhea because of it.

Furthermore the way they handle the transportations were the worse. The going to the Padang part in the wee hours weren't that bad compared to the one when we were suppose to go back to the maktab in the afternoon. No one bother to queue up or anything they just pushed their way into the bus. Rough huh? At least the boys were okay but the girls with their assets...errr... dun wanna get into details over here but you can get what i mean larr...

ohya... girls get to get the school hostels where as we boys were all cramped together in the school's gymnasium. Shared the bathroom and everything, quite a new experience for me. lol. And it was the only thing that was fun while spending a week of my time there. Actually kinda miss the days over there right now.
For ya info there's even a 1st Heaven [another bathing area that we've found while exploring around which is ten times more nicer than the one at the gym] and 2nd Heaven [school's cafeteria which we only got to know in the last few days] over there!!! haha...

but i guess the whole thing were kinda worth it especially base on the success on 31st of August. The atmosphere there were really high at the end of the parade/formation because all the participants got this sense of fulfillments??? [Not very sure of the correct word to describe it in english but in chinese i do know which are, "Man Zhu Gan".] for finally finishing the whole thing successfully after a week long of torture. yea~ at least that's what most of my group mates felt. [Note: there were about 80 groups, 25 persons in a group including the section leader and i'm in H2 group which by the way is the best group.lol]. We [H2] even went out to celebrate our success on 1/9/2006, Friday at Experts Food Court at Jln. Song there. Also met James and Ah Mag on that night.

yea~ that's how i got to spent the Merdeka Day this year. A very memorable experience indeed. hmm... pity I can't get to see our work. Anyone recorded the whole thing?!?!?!?

well, just out of curiousity... how did you guys spent yours???

stepping on my head...

2006-08-17T02:40:00.000-07:00

actually din thought this would happen but still....
fui yo~ so nice... someone actually got the chance to step on my head!!! i'm such a failure... [sigh*]

Liew You Hong a.k.a small guy with specs, darkskin who's very hard to handle..(that's how those that doesn't know his name called him)

[man... this thingy gonna be all bout him!!!]

well... he's so not 'song' + upset that he din get chosen to become a prefect. yesterday[16th Aug.] he even went to find Edmond to get an explaination from him and heard that the way he asked people to enquire which class Moon's in was very very rude like, "Where's Edmond!!!!", " Why did he 'pecat' me?!?!?", "What's with this letter of resignnation!?!?!"... blah blah blah.

also went to bug Pn. Mary. She's actually ask us a favor... that's to help settle him for her.

gonna go look for our Ayahanda after hols. aswell...

Anyway, me today "suoi suoi"[unluckily] met up with him. Then he bombarded me with all this questions:

" What's the reason that i'm not chosen?"

" Why am i not chosen?"

" Please tell me why, WHY, WHY!!!!?????"

i'm like,

" urm... err.... okay. Just let me tell you the truth, kay. It's because of your attitude. YOu are not suitable to become a prefect. "

LYH[all the while getting louder and more aggressive] : " What's wrong with my attitude????"

me: " well... one of them is the way you handle the students. I heard from many people that you've being very rude. I've told you before that it isn't nice and you should change but i dunno for what the heck reason you just don't want to listen to me...."

[interrupted by lyh.]

lyh: " That's not rude! I only speak a little bit more louder than usual. plus they tend to listen to me. Afterall, when i'm not dutying i'll go and look them[so called problem students] up to have a face-to-face talk with them, telling them to tie well their tie basically make sure that they look smart when they meet me...."

me: " That's rude. You doesn't have to speak to them like that and go talk nicely to them later."

lyh: " Do you guys know how i feel??? People made fun of me when i'm not chosen especially when it happen two times in a row. Especially the Malays. When they find fault with me and wanted to bash me up will prefects come and help me??? no. Mostly the chinese gang will come and help me."

[huh??? what's that got to do with being a prefect???]

me: " okay okay. Let's put that aside. Since you told me before that you 'berkobar-kobar' want to be a prefect and you are willing to change if we tell you your problems but we're not seeing that."

well, this just go on and on and on.... and all the while i've been talking nicely to him whereas he's yelling at me all the time that is only until Horng Eng arrived then he quieten down and talk so nicely to her.
I wonder where did it go wrong??? was it because i've been way too nice with him until he got the impression that i'm a good target to let out his anger on??? I ain't got leadership quality??? Horng Eng's scarier???

oh well, i still think it's the former... so maybe i'll try to change my style or something... [sigh*].

Any advice for me concerning this matter???
do give me some feedbacks, ya.

pissed off

2006-08-15T02:38:00.000-07:00

Happy for the first half of my day in skool and the other half was spoilt because of Pn. Mary and Pn. Ng!!!!

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During recess time went to the "bilik guru tambahan" to look for 5g's form teacher.
outside the door met Pn. Poh who was carrying lotsa things in her hand. Sobb, just being helpful and nice i pushed open the door for her. In i stepped into the room without thinking of closing the door after me since most of the time that door wasn't close. Just as i was about to talk to the form teacher... Pn. Mary and Pn. Ng just started to whined and called out my name infront of all the other teachers saying:

" Christopher... Close the door!!! What is the sign stuck on the door for anyway??? Didn't you see that chair over there at the back of the door??? "

so, i apologized and went to close the door. that's when a loud screech was heard!!!

"aiyo!!!! Christopher!!!! that's why larr.... i hate that sound you know!!!! That's the reason why that chair was put over there!!!! "

then they went on saying this and that with an occasional "vice head boy" leeking out from their conversation.

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WTF!!!! it wasn't like i did it on purpose... it's just an accident okay...
common.... afterall, all this happen was because i was just trying to help out a teacher!!!!
Both of them doesn't need to make me felt like i'm guilty when i'm even not!!!!
i'm a human too you know.... i have feelings.
plus don't compared me with horng eng and edmond!!! i'm me, myself and three of us are complete different people!!!
i know you like them better since they are a natural born leaders, always so able, alert and so on...
you have no idea how much i've tried to keep up with them!!! all the time trying to earn other people's respects!!! or of the tension i've felt because of this post!!!!

alrite happy now?!?!??!?
satisfied yourself for ruined my day?!?!?!?
congratulation to you guys for succeeding in making me feeling so pissed off!!!!
thank you!!!!

aRr~

2006-08-14T00:01:00.000-07:00

arr...!!!!
tomorrow's having Chemistry test!!!! and the day after tomorrow gonna have Maths T. Test!!!!
arr!!!!
headache!!!!
haven't finished studying yet!!!! gosh~ gonna go continue study now. ciao~
wish me lucks tomorrow and the next day aswell...

MyVi

2006-08-02T04:38:00.000-07:00

huff* it's been a long time since i last blogged. Dunno why but i just suddenly lost the enthusiasm to blog. Anyway, now i'm back again.

As some of you guys [or gals] might know, I have became a Prefect again and also chosen to be the Vice Head Boy for the Morning Session Prefectorial Board of 2006 & 2007.
And~....... alot had happen since i've taken this new responsibility of mine, this post. not only that also got to meet many types of people, many new incidents which i never met before while in form4 & 5. sobb, i thought of typing it all down and sharing with all those that knew the existence of this blog page.

one of this so called new incident which actually happened a week before... to be exact was on Tuesday, 25/07/06, involve a MyVi and one hell of an angry parent.

As usual me, Horng Eng, Siao Ching, Samuel and Norman dutied at the front gate or main gate as some called it trying to catch students that don't have nametags, logos, tie and so on. While Timothy was in-charge of opening and closing the gate for the cars of teachers and students[with school logos of cos]. Suddenly, this MyVi just came speeding towards the gate honning loudly all the while at us. Well, there's nothing we could do except to open the gate for it to go through into the school compound. and it stopped somewhere before the lane which goes towards side-gate with tyres screeching and all that.
Me, Siao Ching[sC], Horng Eng[hE] and Samuel[Miao] rushed there to find out what the hell had happen. Then a form 4 girl [Chia Siaw Ching, CsC] came out of the car looking very apologetic at us.
Below were the conversations we had done during that moment:

hE: " What had happen?"

CsC:"..."

[Dad got out from the car looking very furious!!!!]

D[very loudly]: " What's the f@#king meaning of this?!?!??! Why were parents not allowed to drive their children into the school compound??!!??!?!

hE: " Sir, this is our school rules. What you are doing is wrong. No matter how angry you are you mustn't hon loudly in the school's area."
[All excos nodding their heads]

D[still very loudly]: What else can i do?!??!? I'm already speeding towards the entrance and saw the gate closing and was afraid that the car will collide with it!!!!

hE: "Still what you did just now was wrong."

Me: " Yes. all you need to do is try to tell us your problem nicely and we'll help you to sort it out. You don't have to do what you did just now."

D: "okay i apologise for that. i just can't contain my anger because i saw that student's cars were allowed inside where as we, parents were prohibited from doing so!!!"

either hE or sC: " They were allowed inside because they got the school logos and they were also the school's prefects."

D[shouted]: " Then give me the logo!!!! I'll buy it!!!!

either Miao or hE: " Sorry. We can't simply give it to you. Most of them got the logos with 'Kebenaran' from teachers in-charge."

D: "THEN I WANT TO SEE YOUR HEADMASTER!!!! I DON'T CARE!!!! I'LL EVEN SHOUT AT HIM LIKE WHAT I'M DOING TO YOU GUYS RIGHT NOW. I'M TELLING YOU I WILL!!! What kind of school is this?!??!? What Sekolah Kerajaan??!?! Asking students to sell tickets!!!! Only private schools are doing that!!!!! "

hE: " but this is a type of fund-raising for our school...."

D: "Bulllshit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The government had so many money!!!! They raised the oil price, electricity charged, everything!!!! When East Malaysia was the place that produced the oil!!!! We still have to pay higher than those over at West Malaysia!!!!!! Tell me where did all those money gone to?!?!??!?!"

[wife[W] got out from car, looking worried and embarrass]

hE: " Sir. Please control yourself. I'm sorry, our headmaster is not in right now but can you give us your phone numbers? We'll inform him when he come back to school from his errand elsewhere about this matter. And ask him to contact you."

[ D pulled out his namecard. Give it to hE but changed his mind. keep it back and asked whether we got paper to write down his hp tel. Miao looking very serious all this while, took out a piece of paper and wrote it down.]

Miao: " how will we call you [as in name]?"

D: "Ha~!!! Call me Datuk!!!!!!"

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[sobb, miao took down his car plate's number.]

D: " What?!?!?!? Want to ask people to bom my car is it?!??!?! Think i'm afraid??!??!??

Me: " Sir... we won't be doing that."
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me and hE: "It's just for our record."

W : "okayokay[to hubby]. Sorry arr... Sorry arr... [to us]."

All Excos: "Nevermind."

hE: "Just don't do that next time. Everything can settle in a nice way."

W: "kaykay... sorry again."

[went back into car. D glare at us then went into car aswell then drove away.]

Yupp. That's almost the same as what had happen on the actual day except for some parts that i've tokok tambah without knowing it myself.
Well... for the next few days we've been taking a close look out for that MyVi again but no sight of it again. Suspected that D got a lecture from W.

Anyway, to those that knew bout this and is reading this right now don't hesitate to leave some comments behind especially if i got some parts of it wrong.

happy~

2006-06-28T01:32:00.000-07:00

Today got the AGM for Badminton Club's AJK 2oo6/2oo7,
sobb stay back after school with a group of friends and wait for the meeting to start which is at 13:oo pm.

Man~ kinda shocking when we got there!!! U6S1 is fill almost to it's limit. ha~ and all those "mai shenshen, kiang kiang" people were all there. anyway this of cos dammed my spirit and my confidence especially when there's 5 people competing for the secretary post.
after we all had our turn of introducing ourselves, we were ask to go out. during that time i'd already prepared myself for the worst, but when they finally did ask us in again... i was shock to see my name up on the blackboard. ha~ real surprise and glad aswell !!!

So... hereby i would like to thank all those people that vote for me!!!

"THANK YOU!!!!!"

glad as i am but by getting the post i want there's a price to pay. Now i have to go to Stapok Badminton Court for every Friday's practices!!!

real bRain wave~~~

2006-06-27T08:07:00.000-07:00

"Failure is the Mother of success!!!"

is it true???

well it's not according to my sis.

why's that? cos only from failure can we get those precious experiences, and from those exp. we finally succeed!!!

if we fail for 1oo times minus the exp. we still won't succeed.

but if we sum up all those exp. that we've gained, [even if we failed for 100 times] then surely we'll succeed when we try for the 101 times.

sobb, the saying should goes like this:

" Experience is the Mother of Success!!!"

way to go sis!!! that's really such a great brainwave!!!

quoted by sis on 26.06.2006, Monday, 20:00pm.

~congrats~ ; '''sucks larr'''

2006-06-27T02:32:00.000-07:00

yea~ finally make it to the second round and yet gonna stay another few more days as a pengawas pelatih.

congrats to all those that also got in aswell. But to a few of em that didn't.... hai* sucks larr. just try harder next in-take if there's gonna be one, ya? it's okay no hard feelings orr!!!

and also quite glad that most of the people i know in group 4 still stay the same except Ivan. ha~! "zhao Gao"[in a joking way], which in english will be "run away dog", since he was change to group 5. sigh* that leaves me and Samuel there... the only boys in our group! just gives out the idea that boys are almost extinct harr??? oh well can't do anything bout that. lol.

ohya... yesterday got our class pics taken. sure mine will turn out errrr sucks. i'm not photogenetic for ya info. anyway just felt ashamed with what i did in the posing shot. can't think of any pose de~ sobb just raise my hands in the last minutes and i think it block a few of them at the back. hai*

kay... thinks that's all. nothing special today sobb nothing to type about.

bLueberries

2006-06-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

went there with Aunty Hua, my niece and her boyfriend.

the name is "Patience Daily"

located a few blocks away from Medan Pelita,

facing a Souvenir shop.

The place looks classy,

and the price's the same too.

it's better not to go there with an empty stomach...

if not it's your pocket that's gonna hurt.

urm.. the menu's quite confusing.

cos too many dishes available to choose from...

one bLueberry eXpresso under the highlighted Crepes i've finally choosen.

and a bLueberry Supreme under Desserts.

a bE cost as much as RM8, while bS cost RM9 for one.

with name as fancy as those, one might thought of something else,

though each turn out to be only pancakes with Ice-cream and Ice-cream with bLueberry,vanilla and yogart when they are serve.

they looks and taste fine...

so i guess it's kinda worth.

but what do i care anyway

since i doesn't have to pay!

day, half day, a moment...

2006-06-16T03:20:00.000-07:00

tired...

i'm just tired...

[of what???]

just by smiling every single time i met anyone i knew

tired...

still i'm tired...

[but why???]

because everyone smiles to me first in the first place so i have no chance but to smile back...

just because everyone think of me as someone that's suppose to be happy all the time...

frust! [frustrated]

i'm totally frust...

just being nice to everyone,

just by knowing the fact that i knew too many people for my own good!

but...

it can't be help.

they just keep coming.... slowly drowning me up in their companionships, in their laughters, in their voices... in everything!!!

please...

please...

just let me have one day...

or maybe just half a day...

for me to remain as i am, alone, silent...

oh heck just let me do what i want, what i think of.

even if it's only for a day, half a day, for a moment...

wrong number*

2006-06-13T05:29:00.000-07:00

hmm... weird.

yesterday, i was helping a friend of mine to ask around some friends whether they still have their form 6 books with them. And after numerous fruitless calls, another friend of mine suggested me to call that someone who might still have those books with him.

Anyway, i just called his number. well here is the conversation between me[m] and the receiver[r]:

r: hello?
m:hi. may i speak to xx please?
r: wrong number.
m: oh?! sorry.
r:[silent] --- cluck[line became dead]

sobb, i dialled the same number again.

m: hi.
r: errrr...
m: oh! it's you again. cheesh does that mean that i'm wrong again?!?!?! but over here it is stated
that his phone number is 082-@#%*^$.
r: yes. this is 082-@#%*^$. but no such person exist over here.
m: Xxx[english pronunciation]? no? like really really no?
r: oh... i think you read his name wrongly. it's suppose to be Xxx[chinese pronunciation].
m: oOo..kay. is he home?
r: he's out.
m:when will he be back then?
r: around 7pm something.
m: okay. then i'll call back later.
r:---cluck[phoneline goes dead again]
m:???

well, that's basically what it's all about. i really can't get it why she[ah~yes... a she] can't tell or at least guess who i'm looking for since both the english and the chinese pronunciation of his name is almost the same.

hai*... weird.

ferris wheel

2006-05-11T23:02:00.000-07:00

life is like a ferris wheel...

round & round in a circle it always will go,

up & down, when? we'll never know.

too many changes & never once the same

unpredictable & myterious forever it shall be

just like the way it's meant to go...

life truly like a ferris wheel.

tO prOtect, tO mamOru..

2006-05-08T20:02:00.000-07:00

my friend once ask me why i always use the same nick. for every multi~player online game i ever played.

caduceus...

why caduceus???

it is the magic wand of Mercury with which he conducted the souls of the dead across the styx, and could raise the dead to life.

the name is the same as my objective... to protect, to mamoru someone that need me...

at least that's what i think i believe in before, but now i wasn't sure of it anymore...

i'm too weak to protect others in the end i'm the one that need others to mamoru...

it looks... urm..kinda girlie..

2006-05-02T20:39:00.000-07:00

Yeayea... i know... the whole thing looks like sum girlie stuff!!!!
but that's the only bskin that look decent enuff and will gonna suit the title i'm giving it.

"Sleepless Nights: Under the Lamp~Post"

why this??? course the little girl [&herpussy] can't sleep and she is standing under the lamp~post... [get it??].
would have prefer it more if the background colour is black but i can't do a thing bout it course i'm such an idiot in this kinda things. help me~!!!!![screaminghysterically].lol.

hmm... will finish this after i got back from dinner!!!

[buff*]

yea i'm back. man... i'm sooo full, niway i will only post in this blog when i can't seem to be able to sleep at night. sobb you can basically get to read what i'll be doing during that time!!!! hehe~

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2006-05-02T19:35:00.000-07:00

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